Recently I have spent a lot of time thinking about my radically changed looks. To me at least they are radical.; most people say I still look like me, that short hair suits me and that I have to remember that everybody changes with age so I can't expect to look 21 anyway! This last one particularly drives me crazy because I am fully aware I don't look anything like 21, or 26 or indeed what I would look like if I were my actual age of 28 and had not got sick! I would not be scarred, I would not have shorter hair than everyone I know!
True I might have put on some weight, be less fit (though I doubt it), I do not mean to say I am fat, I just a 12 instead of my previous 8 and my jeans testify to it! It is a pure medical fact that cortisol causes your body to store fat around your torso and this is what I have done. As a result I have had to completely replace my wardrobe; something that is not cheap and little traumatic at times. Out with the old French Connection jeans and All Saints tops I saved for when I was being so career focused and in with Tesco, Zara and Charity shops. Ok thats a little melodramatic, I still have some very nice clothes but I still feel it is a forced loss. I try to not to be materialistic, lets face it if someone gave me health in return for all my "stuff" it would be a complete no brainer! Memories are what are important!
However I have meandered from the point. I've been pondering upon my looks and while it can and has caused me some distress I have made a big effort to get on with it. As I said, buying clothes that are comfortable and therefore don't make me feel like a hippo and by embracing the fact my natural look is very basic which in many ways makes it more flexible! I can look like anything from one day to the next. As with any girl my makeup and clothes are the result of choice; as casual or dressy as I like to be, but the real winner is the hair. I have started to acquire more wigs, now in different lengths and colours. My most recent acquisition being a very long copper-red wig. i wore it yesterday at a wedding with a dress and heels and aside from the - what if people realise it is fake? -nervousness, I think I pulled off the glam look quite well!
In contrast today I wore no wig, no make up with shorts and tshirt. I might not even be recognised as the same person! Now I have decided to embrace my new found talent as a chameleon/ potential spy I am wondering just how much fun i can get out of it? Who shall I be tomorrow??