A small note on the kindness of people. When things went bang in my life... and I'm not really not sure when that started one thing became very clear: when life gets hard people show their true colours.
You think you may be able to predict who these people might be. I thought I could but I was wrong; I still am sometimes but in both respects and from that I am learning to keep open eyes, ears and heart.
When I was in hospital, I woke to find my sister sitting by my bed just reading. After I had been discharged my best friend came to see me and tho I was too sick to speak she just sat with me. Other friends I hadn't seen in years turned up out of the blue and they are still here; embracing Imagine It and life with me. I may have had people give me funny looks for my scars, my damaged face, my sudden change in priority away from the mainstream but I have also met some amazing pure souled people who have gone far and beyond to make a difference. I wouldn't have time to list them but be assured you are not forgotten, you are stars that shine in the dark. (Lol I'm with the metaphors today but hey I'm happy and I'm going with it!) However one star shines so bright he has to be mentioned today of all days.
One year ago I (re-)met an amazing man, who looked past the swollen face, the short furby hair and scars and saw and fell in love with the real me. At times I couldn't believe this could ever be so. But now we are married and truly committed to each other in every way. It's a year to the day since we nervously met for a coffee in Costa, so much as happened since then, so many amazing amazing things including last nights trip to the ballet. But what is most special about this anniversary is we are off in the snow to spend a week in a little cottage in the Welsh mountains snuggled up by the log fire. Warming soups, tea and a fruit cake that is in the oven as we speak.... bliss! Bessie the Jeep is raring to try out her four by four and I must go off to pack woolly socks and wellies but I leave you with this.
Don't focus on those that left you, the people that didn't show up, don't search for things to hurt you. You have to have rain to have rainbows so let that be your focus and never underestimate what tomorrow may bring.
See you in a week for a full report! xx